So I have yet again been inspired by Sometimes Sweet to do this blog! Seriously you should go over and have a look at her blog, its so full of idea's and beautiful blogs and things to blog about and everything! GO NOW!
So as you all know I have been editing a YouTube video, and some of you may know I uploaded it, but I had a comment saying that it was embarrassing to watch so I took it down, I don't know whether to keep trying as I have an idea, but then again it might turn out like shit like this one did. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind getting comments, I really do appreciate it so much, I wish more of you would mail me, tweet me or leave a comment so I know what I am doing right or wrong. However I really don't know anymore so I am kinda stuck in the middle of hyping myself up to film and laying on the floor contemplating why I am here and what I am currently doing with my life. *cough* But like I ask every time I make a new blog-post to leave me a comment and tweet me but non of you seem to, but don't get me wrong I am grateful for the people that message me over Facebook and tell me that they are enjoying my blog, so thank-you if you are reading this! Should I just go ahead and film the video? I don't know.
This gets me onto something I have been thinking about for ages. My dreams. I really don't know what dreams I have for the future, and I know your all thinking *OMG ROXANNE YOU MUST HAVE A DREAM! YOU MUST! EVERYONE DOES!* Well I don't I am so stuck in the middle of my thoughts at the moment and I haven't a clue, I suppose since the age of about 14 I have always wanted to work with children and be a Nursery Nurse but I have been getting knocked down so much, but there we go, its life and you just have to keep getting on with it, but I really don't want to be stuck in a dead end job for the rest of my life. I suppose blogging would be an awesome job and working from home because then you never have to leave the house and everything but is it what I really want? I don't know. This is why I thought this video was relevant, -side note, I know it is another danisnotonfire video but seriously you should watch it because it helped me so much-
I am so scared about where I am going to be in the future, like we all are. But me, being me of course I am scared about where I will be next week! I think this is because your life can change in an instant and then BAM before you know it your 50 years old and you don't know your life has gone. I mean I worry about, will I meet a guy that likes me enough to marry me, will I have children like I have always wanted? I think this is because I have been single for like 3 years. Don't get me wrong I like being single and everything but it does put thoughts in my head and I get scared so much so that it keeps me up some nights well most nights and then I am so tired in the morning! *pray for me*
On the upside of things my day today has been really fun, I have been on a course and I me being me I have just been myself and ended up making friends! -side note; fuck yeah I made new friends- Now I am not the person to act someone there not, and I didn't, I just always make a tit out of myself, and this in turn makes people laugh and that's how I made new friends ha. But this has brightened my mood like no tomorrow and I am so happy now, the main thing is that I have seen a change in myself so I am really happy!
So that's whats been going on in my mind lately, I hope that you like it, and yet again I'm sorry that it is mostly text but I did give you a video to watch so don't throw things at me.
P.S I have a fun blog-post for Friday!
LOVE
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